John Fitzgerald Kennedy tried to live up to the adage that great things are expected from privileged people. The more I see what we have come to the more his life (which for me was always in the shadow of Martin Luther King's life) has meaning for me, as do the circumstances surrounding his death which tend to shadow my political philosophy, but I have recently realized why that shadow darkens my thought, beyond just the loss and evil at work.

You see it was in the 50's when his talent and influence were emerging that America went down the road of paranoid irrationality that found us led into the Cold War by men who saw huge wheels of money in scaring us with phobias. What makes it so sad, always using the legends of victory through deceit as their guiding lantern, and examples like JFK to show that peace always fails, is that this idea and calling it "The Nature of Reality" is what makes us a culture so determined to escape reality, who end up victimizing ourselves to give what we have been taught to believe credence.

The Reagan machine had what they felt was a better idea, an idea how to use JFK and they did that, it worked out for them. When people in the unions who tortured me and lied about it, strut that I am a grand stand operator for having big notions and a political philosophy, this is a veiled spotlight on simply my right to an opinion in a plan intending to use me the way they used Kennedy by killing him and offering me the right to live by fulfilling their ideas. It isn't sanctuary, it isn't our social contract, and it isn't choice.

Why did they set this up and use me? Because they wanted this small, obvious objection, that many people have raised, to childish displays of the power to dominate being literally self-destruction never to get airplay, to point their finger and say well that one thinks it, what a laugh. And they call me a jinx, make sure the normal things that anyone has a right to expect go wrong. It serves them, and deflates the hopes that good words can bring.

I don't know why they want to be like that, but it's a fool's errand to just deny that maliciousness is something they aspire to, the faceliars. Being targeted is sure no fun.