My generation were anti-heroic when it came to Ecology but I never personally stopped noticing that, wondering who they expected to raise awareness when theirs was so dim? So what turned out is that I got boxed into this situation of being to myself an imaginary mentor to this new generation who is heroic towards Ecology in so far as trying to explain what happened before and why the anti-heroic generation I am part of do not admit that about themselves and of course I have to be attacked and accept that because I am after all brain damaged from torture and Nazi tactics gangs like Carnegie Mellon have perfected using me as the object in their claim to being heroic, which obviously has some anti-hero to them. So the result is that the anti-heroes explain it all by making me the object of their explanation and for perfectly understandable reasons that leaves the heroic generation wanting out of my mentorship, so it's entirely imaginary, this curse of explaining.



Point of No Return


A Czech commoner, Louis Faucher,

Had been a General of France.


To avoid dishonor when desertion was ordered

And to hide who he was from the Germans.


Awaiting execution in prison

Well, in Hungary


Refugees were taught catechism

Catholic prayers and given false identity papers - by the government.


A school for Jewish refugee kids was referred to as

an excellent Hungarian orphanage up the mountain


while unlike him it was found out in the end

while like him saw liberation in time.


How we hide; how we liberate

once spoke well of us.





The Irish Kid


The only kiss

That I can remember

Is the kiss I gave to Greta.

It will be on my lips

For as long as I can remember.


No don’t turn blue or green

It’s the same thing you have seen.


Who?

Who do you mean?


The time box keeps

The word is heart.

You might want to look away, look away.

Lady. How fascinating you are

How beautiful you are

Look away so I can say it all once more



Her Picture


Normally, I wouldn't bother (having nothing to say)

but there's this feeling in the air that someone

might rather I did; so please save one for me.


I guess the way a purple flower sits

very pink and proud on your lotus raised hand

would be asking for the time before sleep

when a quiet moment seems very sweet,

don't you think?

So, please, save one for me.


If some time might pass perhaps I'd have it

snap my fingers, look that's just right

but I'm such a hasty man, just please,

save one for me.




The History of Evictions


The good guy gang bring roses every time.

They lay in wait with sermons and cruel smiles;

There’s a place in their resentment

Another in death row

They follow you with Bibles and crows.


Jackie Ruby’s venture was a rout

All in place with Hollywood and Nixon advance scouts

Not only not the beginning

Crime of the century was just the insult

The Cyrils needed.


Rhythm tenses;

Shimmy in Jagger.


A teacher makes her point in jabbing you to stop

When enough has been said

So let me think it through

Have I said enough to entertain you?


The good guy gang bring roses every time

They lay in wait with sermons and cruel smiles;

There’s a place in their resentment

Another in death row

They follow you with Bibles and crows.

There was one last blast for Argentina

For the onset of festivities

Scheduled to take place at Ambassador Hotel

Two months after Memphis and then the record rolled

White White White but never whitey with them.

Bank rolls royce.


The minute men set the fires over Havana

Anywhere they found flammable.


The church bells ring occasionally.



In Love with you


For the night

I just wanted to be

An old coat

Hanging in Salvation Army

Unbought


My collar fixed

A transistor

Playing an old song

In dim lights of a closed part of town


This way

The frantic and frenetic discomfort

You seem to be in

Can try me on

Look yourself over

Shake your head no

And put me back

No harm done


And I will hang there peacefully

Singing my old second hand tune

For nobody, nobody but you

And as it dims

It will also ring again loud, soft

And terribly second hand

Shedding second hand tears

In love with you




Degrees of Black and White in Phillipsburg


Whatever that may have all been about

I guess it needn't concern you and me.

The clock, I don't see it, oh, there it is,

it's evening, bright with summer, cool with fan

and somehow I managed to turn around

from that lockpress gaze.

Where then, seeing you, and seeing you again

I calmed down, I laughed, I cried.


almost barren movie gazette tumbles ~ see I'm funny with words.

oh, nobody's here but me, I didn't mean it like that sorority

ts'okay.

where then piano chart chart, yeah chart wow.

guess that's where I click return huhn, okok


uhm


something about a real old kiss from a long time ago

that's root, know what I mean?

Like, like them letters I stupid keep

I 'on't know what all they is

don't don't get bothered for friends that much.


You can tell her she

has an aptitude

she will understand what you did.

Everything but that

you went to the park.

That will be hard. I don't know why.

I think I'm just saying that.


Maybe because it's disturbing that no one's really there.



Romantic


The family never had much money

Her dad was always mean

That’s how she stayed a virgin

And kept up her shallow clean

Life never changed much

Once she turned fifteen

By the time she went to college

She was expert on blue eye shadow

Trite she was not.


At some point she realized

There were lots of men to choose from

Advised to avoid the jealous type

Saw some classmates fall for creepy.


Her glance flicked off the wandering lewd

The feminists and lesbians chalked her off

Grounds for resentment came in spiffier packages

She was classified as pretty and humdrum

Seasonal magazine discard pile.


She never said a word I didn’t admire.

She never had anything to lie about

I was too messed up to ask her out either

But that vacant seeming Pittsburgh girl

Was top.